Feeling victimish today


Feeling victimish today..

what a strong weak feeling

is taking over my whole body and mind!

I want to faint and forget it all..

What is all? All!!!


Feeling victimish today..

I know the degrading sensation.

where hate and revenge and anger and sadness

are birthed from.


Feeling victimish today.. 

escape does not help.

I could go down on my knees

to become a crouching worm 

but I don’t.


Feeling victimish today..

the truth is somewhere else.

I am taking on that impoverished role..

to cry over poor old ME.


Quelle bêtise!


My heart is in upheaval

Living orderly in front of Bank

Is it from the coffee I drank?

is it from the emotions I stirred up?

Is it from the bullets I am daring

to excavate from my flesh? 


How much can a heart take? 


I am thinking about the fluttering organs of people everywhere

seven Billion or so  – in constant sur-motion.

.. only love do we need,

only love should we give. 


This late Sunday Morning

Santo Stefano di Sessanio Bracing 2

This late Sunday Morning the sun is standing high, 

My body is heated and almost uncomfortably expanding under the powerful light.

From time to time clouds are bringing cool relief..

I let the sun be part of my revealing process

“Come and melt away the ice crystals locked in my cells since the beginning of time !”


There is no going back anymore –

the melting process has begun 

and I don’t know how long it will take and if it will ever be finished.

Probably not. I don’t care.

Every one new liberated cell is a new breath of life.




March 2nd 99


Today, now – I feel as if the entire bloody mankind might be part of me. Full of smoke, of lust, of drunkenness, intoxicated by wine and painting – all the wickedness, the chasms full of happiness, yearning and sensuality … oh could I always paint, paint – I would be in heaven!